euri romininco on returning to earth after what was then the longest space flight in history said quote "the cosmos is a magnet once you've been there all you can think of is how to get back"
-Brian 

i am very happy with life these days.
I don't think I would know that I'd be in Florida working at disney world right now if you told me that junior year of high school.
I think the thing i developed over the years that I'm most happy about is my outlook on life.  I've come to realize that life is to short to live it unhappily.
I think we need to enjoy everyday and every moment we're given.  People come and go in our lives and my best hope is that everyone I come across can say that their life was changed for the better even though sometimes you have some bad interactions, you make some mistakes, or they make some mistakes.  
Life is about the lessons we learn.  In my mind I always wanted to be rich.  That was my life goal in High School.  To find a good job, become a millionaire, but I think deep down the millionaire ideology wasn't about the money, it was more the idea of wanting to change the world, or at least that's what I would like to believe.  But as everyone knows lives are always changing along with ideologies.  I still believe I have a very good heart.  I feel like I've been through many difficult moments and challenges since high school, some were personal mistakes, others were situations that I could have stayed away from, but every single mistake or decision has made me who I am.  I still believe I have a good heart, a good attitude, and by far, a good life.  

there are still good people in the world.  Some say that being to trusting is just ignorance or stupidity but I feel like some people who put on a tough face are sweethearts deep down.
it hurts me to see people so jaded that they have given up hope on being able to trust anyone.  Life is hard and some people give up on trusting people quicker than others.  I'd like to believe I have a resilient soul and because of that I will continue trusting and living my life as generously as possible, taking steps in what is hopefully the right direction, but who can know.

just continue moving forward and hope that one day I can personally change the world in one way or another.
over and out.
-Brian 

without pain, without sacrifice we would have nothing.
stop it. this is ur pain, this is ur burning hand, its right here.
 NO, don't deal with it the way those dead people do come on!
   no what you're feeling is premature enlightenment
    this is the greatest moment in your life man and your off somewhere missing it

      SHUT UP!

        our fathers were our models for god
  if our fathers bailed, what does that tell you about god
            listen to me, have you considered the possibility that god does not like you, he never wanted you, in all probability HE hates you

it's not the worst thing that could happen, we don't need him.
fuck damnation man. fuck redemption. if we're gods unwanted children so be it 

LISTEN!
YOU CAN RUN WATER OVER YOUR HAND AND MAKE IT WORSE OR look at me.

 or you can use vinegar to neutralize the burn, first you have to give up.
    first you have to know, not fear, know that someday you're gonna die.
       it's only after we've lost everything that we're free to do anything. 

-brian 

and as i gently sip this drink
i think about my lack of future
and all the places i could learn to fall in love
-brian 

"My body aches, it heaves, it shakes
All somersaults through so-called art
And I still don't know exactly who I am
I never will, 
Amen"

'like a prayer to sum up exactly what MCS is about. art, finding yourself, being fucked up, pain, and just living with it. '

-Brian